endings, beginnings, pages, chapters, ect.

Location: My wonderful bed

Listening to: The best Pandora play list ever.

Avoiding: being productive.

School starts in two days. I have essay(s) to finish, things to do. Let's be frank... none of this is going to get done until Wednesday night at about... ohhh say, eleven pm. Procrastination how I love thee. But in all fairness I'm doing pretty good. I actually read both books and EVEN annotated, that is a big deal for me. I have written one essay, but the other is nonexistent. So far. Enough about school.

Summer has be absolutely splendidly fantastic. I've played way to much lacrosse, ran lots of xc, learned more about myself, endless nights at the park, and more. I'm sitting here in my room, looking at my wall which is covered in pictures. They're all perfect snapshots of memories that bring a smile to my face whenever I need it. There's pictures of people who love me, who I love, and things I never want to forget. One that I recently just printed off is a picture of some of my very best friends at prom. I look at it and smile because we are all rather unconventional which makes me love them even more. This picture was taken to be sent to a man by the name of L Tom Perry. Are we all posing nicely? negative. I'm being typical me- mouth open laughing my head off. Kels is in the the front striking some ninja pose and everyone is just... themselves. That's what I love. This summer we've gone on adventures, had dress up parties, photo scavenged, spent more than enough time in the new Micheal's, pulled shenanigans, boated way to much, and made simply amazing memories. I live for summers. And while this may be the last summer of being a "child" ever, I'm perfectly content with how everything happened. I don't want it to end, but it must.. and that means goodbyes. I don't want to say goodbye to everyone. Only because I don't believe in goodbyes. Sadly there's this thing called college and it's eating all my friends. If you see it, I suggest you run away... and direct it back towards me to eat me too.

I'm sitting here musing over nothing and I realize how blessed I really am. One more year. I'm ready. It's not going to be a cakewalk, but I'll make it. I'm entering with confidence and excitement for what is yet to come. Who knows where I'll be in a year. I'm excited to find out & I'm looking forward to the adventure.


This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
- Regina Spektor

It's a long shot

Location: house. hallway. floor.

Listening to: Waking Ashland & Death Cab

Avoiding: waiting for something that isn't happening tonight

I'm being held back by bounds I can't control. Invisible chains. I want to be reckless, be free, be anything. I want to love like I never have before. I want to feel with such passion that I can't even see straight- that all I can do is smile.

bring it on senior year. bring it on.