Location: Atop a bunk bed
Listening to: Indie radio, such a hipster, I know... only not really
Avoiding: much needed sleep
Much has happened.
I don't even know where to begin. I need to have a serious heart to heart with someone. Alas, it's almost 2 am. Anyone I would want to have this conversation with is dreaming sweet dreams in their dorm rooms.
Thoughts.
There is a little mystery behind every face, every hello, and every goodbye. Personally, I don't believe in goodbyes. They just aren't real to me. It hasn't hit me yet that I could be saying goodbye to one of my very best friends in the next 48 hours for who knows how long?
I like fall. Everything, and everyone just feels so... ALIVE. and I absolutely love it :)
I'm a firm believer in letting people know (especially those far away, or you haven't talked to in a while) that you are thinking of them. I like to write letters and send them. There's just something about the mail.
I know people are intimidated by me. I know what I want in life (getting there's half the battle) I've been reasonably successful with in my high school career. I try my best to be kind, smile, and let people know they're cared for (and not i'm not perfect at any of these... but i'm trying) Sometimes I wonder if it can be hard to be my friend, but at the same time, it's weird to be so known by so many people but sometimes feel so lonely. But I'm not asked out, ever. And it seems like anyone who cares gets snatched away. High school is dumb. A little over rated. It shouldn't matter, but I'll be honest, sometimes it hurts more than anyone can know. As silly as this sounds, girls need to hear you're beautiful instead of you're hot. I can count on one hand the guys who have called me beautiful, who have loved me for me. Girls same goes for you, I think we need to tell the guys that they are gentlemen. Call it old fashioned, but it's something I believe in.
really really random thought.... but you know when you have those days when you're getting ready for bed, and you just look nice. Especially your hair, like it's not bad or average looking, it's just nice. Sometimes I just wish I could freeze my hair like that and put it on every day with no effort. Because who says tomorrow my hair won't set on fire and fall out? (okay a little ridiculous, I know... forgive me. It's 2 am) However, So it is with life. I find it funny that we spend more time remember the "bad hair days" as opposed to the good ones. So from now on I just want to learn lessons from the bad ones, and remember the good days because these past two days haven't been to bad. :)
And you know. Maybe our fairy tales and happily ever afters aren't going to be picture perfect, or even what we imagined. But I wouldn't trade this fairy tale I'm living for anything.
I'm also always down for a good blanket fort. I know what I'm doing tomorrow afternoon.
