zooey&joseph.

soundtrack: \/\/\/\/\/

Love this. 

Can't they just get married already?

this is perfect too. 

okay. that's all. i'm in the middle of an unhealthy obsession of these two right now.

so. much. soul.

soundtrack. florence.

I'm sitting here in my bed. Thinking about many things. Like the things I could do to fix perceptions and ideals of beauty among us. It breaks my heart seeing the things girls do to be perfect. And how many girls really doubt how amazing they are. I know I sometimes do - getting caught up in comparisons to others. But after writing a 10 page research paper on the issues behind distorted body images and the medias influence it really makes me want to change something. That really is what I want to do. Leave marks of good. I don't think ranting about it on my little corner of the interwebs will do much. No I have to think big. Much bigger. And I have a few ideas up my sleeve.

On another note. 

Listen to these. 

In my opinion Florence and the Machine has some of the most soulful, thoughtful, most meaningful songs out there. All the lyrics are constructed carefully and perfectly. 

So just stop what you're doing. watch these. and listen.

Really listen. 

And feel. 

"it's peaceful in the deep. cos either way you cannot breathe"

Never Let Me Go

"I've been a fool and i've been blind."

Shake It Out

"i heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too. so in the darkness i stayed with you"

Cosmic Love

"happiness hit her like a train on a track"

Dog Days are Over

(i like the earlier version of this video better. but it has to be played in a lower quality so it wont post.)

El fin.

few things.

soundtrack: bag raiders

Home in a week. 

Working.

Dorms are creepy at night.

Really miss lacrosse. 

I just want to play. 

▬▬▬▬<░)

And I have the best friend in the entire world. 

ever get the feeling you're missing the mark?

if you want to be truly intimidating.

if you want to make an impact.

if you want to have a strong connection with others.

Just be sincere.

Sarcasm isn't a personality trait, it's not an attitude. It's a style of rhetoric meant to be used every so often to highlight a point. Saying your sarcastic... It's like saying your favorite cuisine is salt. You never have to take a stance with sarcasm. And there in lies the problem, it's just so. noncommittal.

When you see someone you would like to have a conversation with this is how you make your impression felt. "Hello." I'm not sure where lines got crossed and it was deemed attractive to be ambiguous and critical. Girls don't like it when guys do it, and guys don't like it when girls do it. We're all guilty. And we're all our own worst PR representatives: ourselves. 

So. Be yourself. Even if it means being unsure or uneasy. Let someone else put you at ease. Meet them in the middle. Be sincere. 

i'm trying a whole lot harder. I'm still flawed. But I'm working on it...

live to love and love to live

soundtrack: sahhh indie playlist :)

So I'm running into this funny little problem. People actually read my blog. ha. 

Any who. These past few days have been wonderful! The first day off for break was officially wednesday, but I got done with class and work by 11 am tuesday and decided that my research paper could wait till after break and got to playing. 

we made some duct tape roses and went to extreme air sports. I still have yet to do a backflip.

I also slept over at Mckann's house with Suzane and Cassie. Played Just dance till wayyy to late and lauged my bumb off. Love those girls.

Wednesday after work I headed up to Park City.  I really miss it there. The beauty. Everything about it it's also really the only place I know. But I had Ben and Audri with me so I took them to some of my favorite places. 

I really miss this roof. It was my quiet place. I would go sit, watch, and think about everything. I like places that are up high, they're so peaceful, they clear my head. It was so great to go back. 

Olympic park from the roof. At sunset. Simply lovely 

Thanksgiving consisted of me doing my own turkey trot - I saw three deer while I was running. It felt so good to trail run again too. You can't do that here... 

We also went to Ogden for dinner with my whole crazy family. I wish I had pictures, but it was delicious. And like any other day I was so very thankful for all the people around me that love and care for me :) I'm crazy blessed. 

So then we went black friday shopping.... we're so cool that we didn't take a car to the outlet malls... we  rode our scooters from the olympic park round about. Reaked havoc and didn't buy anything... except the adventures of tin tin and some cheap pizza. stood in line for an hour at walmart to buy something we could have at the grocery store, sang songs, and laughed about it. Let me just say the people watching was superb. After which we enjoyed our pizzas, watched 2 hours of tin tin over at Roybin's and then fell asleep at about 4 am. 

Later we woke up played an epic game of monopoly. Ben SWEPT. Literally. He owned almost everything and dang. Let me just say that kid is good at games. He also won apples to apples and had THE best hand of green cards. 

I'd say it's a pretty accurate description. 

(if you can't see they say: sexy, smooth, pure, zany, scary, patriotic, unforgettable)

We also went to Temple Square to see the lights turn on.

and the lighting was so perfect in so many ways for so many pictures.

Check out these.

It might look like stock from the internet. But I am proud to say I took that picture! 

It was cold, but so magical to see all the lights turn on!

Then we decorated the tree

This guy is about to get jumped....

I love the holidays. I love life. I love love. I love everyone in my life. 

I'm happy. Even when it's hard. 

The world is kind. 

take it in

first off.

reader: you shine. never doubt yourself. ever. please.

 this is ben.

we're best friends.

seriously though. love this kid.

we can talk for hours about anything. laugh. be silly. go on adventures. explore.

i'm still figuring him out. but  i'm so so so so so blessed to have a friend genuine as him.

also. this weekend was just wonderful. I spent the majority of it with people I love very very much. I've missed the lib square crew. pieces of the CC crew. and the new heritage crew. I finally feel like I have a solid base of friends. something I've missed and I'm so excited to have again. 

and even when things are crazy. like growing up is... all i think to myself is hey this has gotta be good life, so please tell me what's there to complain about. good. good. life.

2 days of hard work till break. i can hardly wait. 

How Diamonds Are Made

over. and over. and over. and over.

just listen to these lyrics. They're beautiful. 

"your soul you must keep totally free"

I walked into the room and this was playing right after someone I adore and like told me they wanted to stay just friends. I'm okay with that. It's like I needed to hear these lyrics right after he told me that. "Where you invest your love you invest your life" Right now... Our lives need to have different investment's. If that makes sense... he's going on a mission right after winter semester, and I need to figure out what I'm doing with my major - focus on different things. I feel being his friend is the best way to help him prepare. I really adore this kid. I truly do. And for now, I'm okay with everything. I say that and feel peaceful. Really I do.

pressure, heat and circumstance. Situations can make all the difference of turing a chunk of carbon into a beautiful flawless stone or a piece of cole. I think we are both putting ourselves in the best place to become diamonds. Life will work out.

It always does. 

keep being a gem - you're one of a kind. 

Truthfully you are.

hear that? it's your heart. follow it.

I'm sitting here.

Wondering why I'm awake. It's only 11:32.... early by college standards. But last night I was dumb and slept on a couch in the lobby knowing that would be the only thing to make me get up early.

after 2 hours of glorious sleep, I learned my lesson.

note to self: never do that again.

terrifying.

any who.

life is. getting better. 

really this semester has taken a 180 degree turn.

I am finding people I want to be friends with for a long time. It's nice. Refreshing. Just to be able to talk. to someone about something and just have them listen first and then really understand where you are coming from. 

also. today I had THE coolest opportunity.

The CEO of ASCEND was speaking in the Clark Building

she had a lot of good things to say. but if I just had to pick one it would be this:

Passion: love it or leave it.

whatever you do. follow your passion. do what you love because you'll be so much happier. Don't be afraid, it will take you further than you can even imagine because you're fueled by something so pure. so needed in the human existence. 

so next semester I think I might just take a photography class. Go on a trip. Influence someone's life.

Living the dream.

Always. 

recalculating.

no lacrosse till next fall.

they want me.

but not right now.

it sucks.

but

so many blessings in disguise.

so many tender mercies.

i can take RMYL classes now.

i can get stronger. faster. 

i can have more time to study.

i can balance work easier. 

i can spend time with people i care about.

i met celeste.

and siera.

i know i can blow the coaches out of the water next year.

i can figure this crazy freshman year out.

i'm not giving up.

just watch me prove how wrong you are.

my heart is in it. i won't take no for an answer. mark my words.

i can sleep.

who.what.why.where.when.

soundtrack: coldplay. can't get enough.

I wish. That everything here wasn't so shallow.

College.

It's all about creating yourself. Starting new.

Forget the past.

Be who you want.

we've heard all the clichés.

 but it makes everyone around you seem rather shallow.  I don't remember the last time I had a real GOOD conversation with someone. Okay. Well maybe I've had a few.  But they were with people who I've grown up with. Who know me. Who I am. What I mean. I didn't have to explain myself.

but everyone here. It's like I can't crack the code. When are we going to let somebody in?

Every day the conversations. "hi" "how are you" "good, you?" "great" "bye" does anyone really care? I want my best friend back. I could talk about anything. Everything. Fears. Hopes. Dreams. And those hugs. I got one like it the other day and died inside. I'm afraid things will never be the same. I've written 8 letters... haven't heard from him since May.

so much soul.

no where to go.

i need to write an essay.
total.
waste.
of.
time.
i don't even care.

and reading back through all my gmail chats wasn't the best idea i've had in a while... if you still stalk my blog. i wish things turned out differently. but i can't change the past. I was so nieve. I sincerely hope you're happy. 

'And so we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past'

smile.

Soundtrack: Mylo Xyloto. pure. bliss.

It's amazing how so many small things can change how you feel so fast.

I'm just so happy right now, and so is everyone around me.

it's been a fabulous weekend. 

college. please, slow down.

The new Coldplay album is amazing. 

I got asked on a date.

made a new friend.

took some better pictures today.

and I stepped on some particularly crunchy leaves today. Which in my book is a wonderful thing.

Autumn is my favorite season.

they'll tell 1,000 storiees

they'll tell 1,000 stories

I'll go inside one day :)

She's a beaut

And mainly we just thought this was hilarious when we walked up to find t rane asleep. with his scriptures. in a hammock 

love this kid. so glad we're best friends. don't know what I'll do winter semester when he leaves!

ramblings of a college student.

Soundtrack: i-tunes shuffle. revamped. remastered. wonderful.

thanks for the music t-rane.

sitting here. on my bed. 2411 Young hall. oh yes. nothing better. 

this post really has not point. other than I don't feel like sleeping. 

Thinking about a lot of things. ha. nothing's really connected. I'll start by telling you about today.

Wednesday. nothing special. just another wednesday. I rather like them. I woke up about 8. Studied till 10. went and took my test. did okay. science. then made theeee best lunch ever. only our oven wasn't working so I  cooked my chicken nuggets with the microwave and a pan on the stove. but then when I sat down to eat lunch I looked at my plate, and laughed out loud.

I'm really 5 inside. Lunch proved that.

I had. Chicken Nuggets. A sliced up orange. Grapes. Nesquick Chocolate milk. yes they all were finger foods. and yes I enjoyed it. Perhaps too much. And to finish it off I had dinosaur fruit snacks :)

Then I took a nap instead of reading for history. went to work. and then got J-dawgs & watched how to train your dragon with Patrick Leishamn. Kid's a gem. top notch wednesday. However, I was a little sad I didn't get to talk with gigi today... I will ASAP.

so my life. It's been a little bit crazy. I should really write in my journal more.

list of life. college. dorms. byu. how I feel. ect.

I love staying up all weekend long. being ridiculous including;

getting attacked/hugged by cosomo at work

crazy neon dances

lost and found sale

camping infront of the wilk

playing lacrosse on NO sleep

kamas and racquet ball

hotpotts & getting lost

pc at 4 am. 

bed at 5.... 2 hours of sleep

my life & thoughts.

how i didn't work out today....

i should be sleeping.

i love laughing

i need to meet more people

i love having best friends.

i want to cuddle.

olivia clayton is the cutest & prettiest baby EVER. 

I think this  \/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/ is hilarious... 

how happy i am to be done with tests for the week

what classes should i take

sometimes I feel like an awful roommate

i love fall

how much i adore and love chole sumsion

how excited I am for 4:00 practice

how time doesn't feel real here

i love red heads.

a letter would be nice

how good the beach would feel

i need a good concert

coldplay's album comes out in like 4 days. SOEXCITEDICOULCRY!

how i need to sell these to help pay for lacrosse

 $10. please please please let me know if you want one!! :)

 <3

I could write so much more. I feel like I just lay here at night and have a million things to think about and do... but I don't want to bore you... but here's a funny picture for you. and one of the many reasons I LOVE provo....because it's weird. 

life's good.

so please tell me what there's to complain about

peace and blessings y'all. have sweet dreams!!

solace.

Soundtrack. Boyce Avenue.

so many things running through my head.

need to be.

so many ideas.

need to sleep.

enjoy these. 

 and this

 remind me of summer.

and finally just because I love Coldplay with all my heart

his voice.

be calm.

The weather

soundrack: bill hamblin. simply a riveting lecture...the persians were cool.

So this morning when I work up at 6:15 (a little late - had to be at work about 35 minutes later) I looked out the window and couldn't really see anything but I thought to myself. Today, today I will be happier than a bird with a french fry. 

I threw on my tights and boots. and today has been pretty great. 

I've had the biggest grin on my face all day.

After work I walked outside to this

and this is why I LOVE Utah. 

Really though, it's finally boots & tights weather. 

I went and got my thesis reviewed, traditions was social hour as always, Book of Mormon just made me happier and history is actually bearable. 

The weather is just wonderful today. This whole week has been my most favorite weather. overcast. rainy. seattle like. sweater weather. boots and tights. oh yes. simply the best. 

And as I was walking to the JSB this morning I looked around. And it finally hit me. I'm here. I'm in college. It was nice to feel adult for a moment, then I laughed because I'm still just a kid.

A kid who is happy. And that's what matters. 

Time is moving faster than I would like.

Soundtrack: gigi's weekly mix.... miss her.

I really should be sleeping.... seems to be something I should be doing a lot.

this weekend. was arguably one of the best I've had in a while. I needed to get out of provo. so we did. Also the fact that it was conference made it about six billion times better. 

we began by going up to the saturday afternoon session of conference. We got there way early because we had amazing seats. We just chilled out in our section for about an hour and a half it was nice to just sit and be with friends in this amazing place. It was amazing, when the first presidency walked in. Everyone was just so quiet, and the spirit filled the room so quickly - these men are truly servants of God. The spirit was just wonderful, I felt so encircled with the love of my Heavenly Father, so blessed. 

Jack, Alyssa, Lexi, Taylor, & myself all at conference.

after the boys went with my dad to priesthood and the girls headed up to PC. we stopped at cafe rio, got THREE free meals, and saw Elaine S. Dalton - we just chatted. She is the coolest.  

We slept over at my house. Had a delicious breakfast of omelets made by poppa and it was wonderful. just felt so nice to be home. Listened to the morning session of conference, got some good tips for being better. During the break mom wanted some family pictures. And oh, we got some family pictures... some funny ones too :)

ALSO meet Olivia - newest member to our clan, I'm an aunt!

SUCH a beautiful baby, right?

 I really like the clouds in this one. Such amazing coloring. I miss Park City in the fall

The whole fam damily. Love them. With all my heart

So after we decided to frolic in the field and take our own pictures...

 One of my personal favorites, lexi kinda makes this shot. 

And this. This is where I grew up. Fall is my favorite season. I miss it, I live for autumn nights, afternoons. Everything.

On the way home we stopped by the Barr's house. I miss them. It was so good to just chat with them, I almost feel more inspired to go continue the idea I had last week at the real beauty seminar - I'll let it be known when progress comes, but I think I might make a difference with this one. 

Life is good. It really is. I'm also trying to be more real with myself and the situations life brings around.  Sometimes, things get messy - we don't really know what to do.  I'm having the greatest time ever.  And at the same time there are so many things you are constantly bombarded with as a college student, life has crazy twists and turns, and really you gotta love people while they are here.  You need to sleep more.  Prioritize better.   I miss geeeggg and kenny.  and sometimes I wish I could just understand people's motives & what they were really thinking.  I'm growing.  Redefining myself every day.  Learning how to be a better friend.  A better daughter.  A better me. 

ALSO.

Men. Boys. Alike. If you want to immediately make me fall in love with you. Be a gent - open doors, treat girls wonderfully. Also. Dress nicely like Joseph Gordon Levitt or Simon Baker. Fitted suits. Skinny ties. French Cuffs. Clean cut hair. Ray Bans. gets me every time.  

uʍop-ǝpısdn

Soundtrack: home. stolen. happiness. the whole summer playlist. 

I don't even know where to begin. 

maybe its the fact that I didn't think I would ever cry as hard as I have today in a long time. the last time I cried like this was april 29 when I found out maddux passed away. 

coming down to provo was one of the hardest things I've ever done. not only did I feel so alone socially, I had no idea what I was doing. I was scared. I still am. I don't know what I'm doing. Doubt I ever will, this grown up thing is hard...anyways, the only person I knew was my brother. I was just coming out of my Senior year which was undeniably fun, but so hard, I just found it so difficult to really try to fit in. I dunno. It's hard to explain. 

But I have time. And I don't feel much like sleeping right now.

Till this summer, I really haven't felt like I belonged anywhere. I have here and there but I've always been that girl who doesn't really care about the thoughts of others, but I still have this longing to fit in. I flit between social groups and I'm perfectly happy that way. I give love freely to those who need it, but sometimes I need it in return... I have best friends, but it's never been like gigi and ken were for me this summer. they were the best roommates I could have ever asked for, and more than chance brought us together. We needed each other. 

We still do.

See when I'm with them I feel like I'm home. They truly connect with me. They made me feel so so so important, loved, needed, and safe. I knew and know that they will always be there for me when I need them. see the best part about this is we all came into each others lives when we needed it. we all were facing some rough stuff. i needed good friends more than anything. it all worked out for a reason. i've never been closer or wanted to get even closer with anyone in my life. we just. get each other. that's why this is killing me softly.

now gigi is going home for a couple months. i don't know what to do. where to turn. i don't have anyone to talk to here. cept kenny. we have each other. but everything is just so. different. "her bag is now much heavier, i wish that i could carry her. but this is our ungodly hour" -the fray. it's true. i feel like there is nothing i can do. nothing except hold her and pray for her. 

i have so many songs running through my head right now. i want so many different things, for so many different people. 

i have so many things running through my head.

so many beginnings.

so many endings.

i just need a hug. one with out an ounce of selfishness in it. 

Word Vomit.

Setting the mood: Florence + the Machine & the xx.

I'm sitting here. With less than 24 hours of being homeless. No one has quite arrived, they haven't left either.

so here I stand.

My heart wants to be in several different places right now. I know I made the right decision. Being here. Still, my heart flits about in so many places. Logic says it's not possible. My heart is giving everything to defy. To prove them wrong.

Maybe I'll try. I still don't know just how high I can fly...

Took this the other day outside the library. Maybe this is my struggle. I love my Father in Heaven. So naturally.

Balance my dear, balance.

here I am. and here we go agian.

I really shouldn't be writing this.

I have finals to study for.

But sometimes, I just can't help but let my mind wander.

I've been listening to this all morning, something about it takes me back to last year, right before everything changed. Right before I began again. To the most perfect summer I had ever had. Oh what I would give to be barley 17 again. To just live that endless summer one more time.

I miss waking up every morning and practically sleeping in my running stuff just so I could stay in bed till the last possible moment before I went to cross country, which I sucked at, but loved nonetheless. Then coming home barley 9 am helping with whatever jobs needed to be done and watching VH1 jump start till someone called me who had just woken up and we began our adventures of the day.

Or every Tuesday morning when we would all go to the lake and wake board on perfect waters. I can still hear the shrill screams and cries of joy as we jumped in the water. Nearly getting a concussion, wrestling on the tubes, then going to lunch after. Perfection.

I miss the camps I would go to. Mostly girls camp and the simply wonderful air of love that you felt for that whole week. Somehow you could bring 200 girls together and have a week almost drama free. I miss dancing on tables, thunderstorms that we almost die in, being completely rediclious and having no one even question you.

I miss spending hours in Micheal's. Finding new roofs. Playing Lacrosse everyday. Taking so many pictures. Going to so many concerts, filling our souls with music. And the beautiful mountain summer nights where we would just lay and look at the stars. Talking to everyone for hours while they said goodbye and left for college. I guess I miss the innocence of what that last summer really was.

I didn't really get a summer this year. I did but I didn't. I didn't even get to really say goodbye. I just left my home town behind and didn't really look back. I miss Park City, the place I will forever call home, I miss it's beauty. The high of all summer being 84 degrees. Sometimes I wonder if I left my home to quickly. I've had life unfold for me down here, and I thank God daily for allowing it to happen. I know I'm ready to keep moving forward, but I feel like I'm living a dream, trying so hard to soak in the reality that is my life. Some days it just doesn't feel real.

The eternal sleepover is done. Our beds are moved back into our rooms. This summer has been crazier than ever. One of the hardest yet most thrilling adventures I've had. While my heart longs to go back to Summer 2010 I wouldn't have traded this for anything.

why today was great.

Sounds pleasing my ears: click, click, click, click - bishop allen

Today was just an ordinary thursday.

I went to sleep last night at about one. Pretty average.

Then I woke up exactly 8 hours later, and just laid in the sunshine streaming in through the windows. That feeling is one of the greatest out there.

Went to class, thought about some neat things. Like here's one for you to ponder [I haven't quite figured out the answer yet] but what makes society fair? How do we measure that? and what defines the threshold? Not according to you, but to society as a whole.

Right.

I made some delicious soup for my nutrition project. I really like that class, it's not the easiest but I really LOVE it.

THEN, when I was checking my email and stuff before work I found out that I get to move into my house for the fall FOUR days early. No charge. That's right people, 4 buildings, including mine, are void of the $15 a night early fee! Why is this such good news? Because that means four less days being homeless!!!! YAYYYYY! I'm so happy! the Lord was looking out for me :)

Then I laughed really hard at this. Only because it's true. haha.

At work this girl came up to the candy counter. Just stopped, looked at me, and goes, "did you know you're really pretty??" Made my life. I laughed, and said thank you. And told her she was pretty herself, because she was. I love random things like that.

and then I ran. I love running. Any who. That's that. Today was awesome. Life is just simply splendid. I love it here!

it's weird.

pleasing my ears: sweet disposition - the temper trap

Being here.

This summer has been so different. It's been a summer of firsts. I feel so free. I'm thinking and seeing things more clearly than I ever have before. I'm in such a good place. I know I made the right decision being here. Even if it meant sacrifice. I've grown up a lot. Even in just a month. It's amazing how circumstances change you. Not to say that I'm not me anymore. I still fully am through and through crazy, silly, outgoing, quirky me. I would give that up for anything.

I just feel more. Alive.

and I like it.

I love my roommates. I couldn't have asked for anything better.

twas such a funny afternoon! went to have a picnic in the canyon we ended up with not the right foods, a fork, losing a lacrosse ball, and it poured. But we took full advantage of it and DANCED. Love these mountain thunder storms.

Up. down. left. right.

Sounds pleasing my ears - john mayer <3

in mahhh apartment (:

You know what I've never really understood?

Why they say life is just going up hill when things are easy going and life is good. In my experience going up hill is no easy feat. It's the hardest part of the run, and getting to the top is exhilarating. When you make it through those hard times, it feels good after. Then you start going down hill. In english we generally understand this expression to mean that things are not going well. Going down hill is EASY people. Especially in running, yeah, I guess it can rip your knees a new one, but when done correctly it's smooth sailing. So let's think logically.

why can't up hill be hard and down hill be easy?

it is in my world :)

cool deal.

Music pleasing my ears: arcade fire.

SO.

I moved.

hip hip hooray :) I love the girls in this apartment.

I also dropped my history of philosophy class and am now in a nutrition class, which is really nice. I also love my job!!

and today, I got to talk on the phone with Danielle Clarke for like an hour! It was so wonderful! I miss her terribly, but I'm so glad we're good friends. She cracks me up! can't wait to see her later this summer! Pictures will ensue!

and JIMMER got drafted to freaking sacramento! what the hay!!

Lame. I would have liked to see him on the Jazz... but can't get em all.

tomorrow I'm going to seven peaks with some LEGIT people!

Yay college!

love ya'll.

keep it classy. Always.

Welcome... to the rest of your LIFE.

Sounds pleasing my ears - coldplay's new single.

SOOO. Here I am.

I am currently sitting in my new apartment. typing on my new mac. and experiencing all new things.

Today was the ending of my oh so lovely orientation at the Y hooray!

It's been fun, but at the same time it's weird experiencing all these new things. I don't feel anywhere near ready for any of this. Still I'm so excited to be here. I want to learn, and that is what this university is for. It's part of the reason I came here. Not only is it cheap, contain some of the best programs in the world. But the dedication to the education to the student as a whole is phenomenal. I really do love it.

And while it's not my dream of Seattle, dreams do have their way of coming true. At least that is what they've been saying all day.

Needless to say, I think I like it here. Life will never be the same for me after this. And that freaks me out a little, but I suppose change never stops ebbing and flowing. It's a good thing. Although it can be overwhelming at times.

:)

Shine on.

listening to: death cab :)

so it is my last day being a senior.

tomorrow we get our cap and gowns.

it's weird.

but exciting.

soo to celebrate, we pulled a prank, and it had lots of potential till the fire alarm went off.... then there was issues. still I won't forget last night for a long time. between frantic phone calls, popo following us to make sure we actually were going to the sevs to get slurpees and next to no sleep. It was simply hilarious!

arguably the best night ever.