If you're in need of a laugh.

Upon going through some pictures with Brigham we noticed that if you flipped between these too it was entertaining. 

So I'm sharing with the world. 

I have a cute brother and niece. 

a fact.

Today during church I couldn't stop thinking about a friend and how they were doing. 

So rather then asking them how they were doing... because we all know social norms are that we say we're doing allright, even if everything is not, I wrote them a letter and left it taped to their door. 

I just got a text from them. 

a kind one. 

but I also feel really silly. 

I shouldn't.

But I do.

and that is that.

in other news. 9 days of classes. and 4.5 finals stand between me and 3 glorious weeks of wedding, family, and snow filled days. 

Background Details

Once upon a time in the basement of Young Hall 6 freshman girls in footie pajamas thought they were alone at the hour of 3 am. They had a dance party in the laundry room - filmed it, had a good laugh and went to bed.

Today I was looking back at the video with Cassie, and we noticed something we hadn't before. 

we weren't alone.  

Life is kind of hilarious. 

Connections.

there's been much talk of friendships lately. Best friends, boyfriends, girlfriends... TV show friends

friends can help each other. a true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself - and especially to feel. Or not feel. What ever you happen to be feeling at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what they really are.

I'm lucky that I have a friendship like that with more than one person in my life.

You know who you are. and I love you dearly.

Thank you. 

Anne Morrow Lindbergh said: "My life cannot implement in action the demands of all the people to whom my heart responds" 

That's how I feel. It's not my idea, but I feel that way.

Little talks

Lately there has been so much talk of change.

people coming.

people going.

seasons turning. 

plans being made. 

life being lived. 

it is an ever present force.

everyone is constantly looking how things are going to change. 

some view it as an escape.

plans, changes, are important, they must be made. but I think they forget. 

what about right now?

what about the things that don't change?

what about the heart breakingly beautiful moment right before the change?

after all. leaves are most beautiful before they fall. and stars shine brightest right before they fade. 

if we're stuck anticipating we're only going to be let down once it actually happens.

living like this will never bring true happiness.

we must be patient. 

going about our daily tasks and priorities. 

being where we are. 

but being patient is hard, especially when you're itching for a change. 

when you're feeling like a child on Christmas Eve. 

Yearning. 

so full of anticipation.

not really sure what things hold in store. 

wondering how hour decisions will influence the change for better or worse.

every day is pivotal. 

I don't know a whole lot right now.

I don't know where I'll be in six months. 

But I do know I'll get there. 

I do know I'll be able to do what I desire.

I do know I'll be happy. 

it is an easy thing to hate.

but to love.

that is an entirely different thing. 

to completely

let go.

and give yourself up.

to let someone explore

the depths of your mind

 (which

is so very carefully hidden away)

to allow someone power

to destroy you.

but trusting them not to.