Begining

It's finally summer! I'm kind of a dork, becuase I really like going to school... but I'm glad it's over becuse I'm ready for a break from all the work! It's kinda wild sometimes, and I love it, but I don't think I will miss it... atleast not too much;)

So, some more people have come into my life that I will be eternally grateful for. Alissa Smith is one of them. She is like a grown up me... at least that is what I would like to think I will be like, seriously I love her. Anyways, so she always says that we are more alike than different. And I believe her. We had a converstation last night that ensued to help us discover somethings about ourselves and also led to a most EPIC email. And by the end of it all, I almost forgot why I was so upset... and really that was great. I cried a little too. but it was good and much needed. As confusing as life is... it's also so very beautiful. And even though life may not always be the easiest option... it is the best one. I have a passion [or atleast I hope I do] for life. And I love living and sharing it with someother people. Now all I need is someone to share it with.
Now there are a few things I have decided we need to do in life.

FIRST. Find our own rythm. We all have something in us that tells us the beat of our lives, and it directs us, tells us where to go so we can be in the right places at the right times. Call it what you like.. but I call it the spirit. And that can be the key to a successful life and being influenceal on others.

SECOND. Learn that you are never alone. Ever. no matter what. Odds are there is going to be someone who has gone through or is going through whatever you are. and so with this epifany. Even though you may be asked to stand alone... it's all for the betterment of you and what you stand for. people respect you for it. and that is a fact I am truly grateful for.

THRID. Treat everyone with love and kindness as you pass. You may not know, they could be having the worst day of their lives and have plans to go home and kill themselves that night, but then they don't because someone like you or me reaches out with a smile or a simple, hello. Believe me, simple things can change lives, I have exprienced this first hand. And it's truly amazing... Also please don't go around assuming people who have a not broken and divorced "typical american" family are not as broken and as hurting as you are on the inside. Sometimes becuse they have the family "Mom, Dad, Brother, Sister" under one roof they have someof the BIGGEST problems. But yet they cover it up, very, very, very, well... and they would gladly trade problems with you like...what, are you too popular? guys try to take advantatge of you? you don't have enough money? Gladly they would want to trade problems with you. Because just like me... the always happy one.. I have problems.. I will admit it. and they hurt alot. they have caused me more pain than you would want to know. so just be nice. enough said.

and last. be a listener. it helps so much. and mabye you can give good advice too. bbut thats up to you and how inspired you are feeling... hopefully its such.