"Love everyone, Frazil" -KJ

Soooo, I've got, oh about 80 zillion things buzzing around in my noggin. From the abstract to the concrete. The awesome to the melancholy.

I have found it rather amusing that when I think, I step back and pretend my life is a movie. Replaying scenes. I, the commentary, am revealing the underlying plot. Really I think my life would make an excellent sitcom. Would likely end up like the Wonder Years or Malcom in the Middle. Everything wouldn't turn out so perfect but hey, I'm okay with that one.

Anywayysss. Some of the things that are floating around up in the ocean of my thoughts.

- How are we supposed to know when we're in love? How do we know we're ready? I think I am . . . I would like to be. But how do you knowwww he loves youuuu how do you knowww he cares? (sorry... enchanted tangent... :P) Perhaps it's like when we know something is true. We just know. It is just high school after all... but you can love someone right? Actually, yes. You can. I love all the boys that I hang out with because every single one is like a brother, okay maybe it's not that kind of "love" but every single one of those boys treats me to the highest potential that I can be. I suppose that they are teaching me what a man will treat me like. The qualities that I will love in my "dream man"

- I do realize that people make mistakes . . . and I may have been the perpetrator of some in the recent past. Although, I'm not exactly sure what I have done . . . If any of you read this, I know I have told you in person, but please just realize, I'm sorry. I'm human. Not perfect. I'm really trying though. I miss you all. Miss how it was. Please let me know it's all right.

-I'm not angry anymore. Just disappointed. Anger is a choice. I'm choosing not to be.

-I will not give up. I am strong.

- New motto. Good thing you have real friends (I love you chloe sumsion)

-Please, don't tell me I don't know what I want. I do. I want you to be happy.

-Perhaps you came into my life to help me repair some friendships . . . now that's done. It might mean loosing you. . . . . . . . . . . . . . as much as I don't want that.

-I'm surrounded by people that care for me. People I can always go to. No matter what. I'm so blessed to have them in my life. Even if they aren't near. I do miss the far away ones terribly, but am so grateful to have the ones near that I do.

-I found out today that I will only be about $450 dollars out by the end of the month. . . as opposed to $2,500. Hollar.

-I will smile. Because I love to smile.

-Vegas in approx 41 days. Love my team.

Also, sundance started today. . . we know what that means! Crappy driving conditions, parking, poking fun at the tourists, famous people, roofs, and wait listing. Yep, I'm just that awesome. Kinda.